Wednesday, March 30, 2011

After All

Bonjour, mes amis.

Still here.
Kicked while I was down, (multiple times),
but still here.

i have meandered the full spectrum of grief:
i have been wild and angry,
and have begged on my knees.

i have cried out,
stamped my foot,
shaken my fist at the Heavens.
i have rationalized,
and turned myself inside out.

but i am still here.

Sunday, January 9, 2011

le Grand Secret

This is impossibly fun.
To be amidst a group of people that are not yet privy to a secret that will make them ever so happy...
my husband and I keep winking at each other over everyone else's heads.

It's gloriously excruciating.

And I still cannot seem to stop grinning.

Monday, January 3, 2011


We have just discovered that we are five weeks pregnant with our first child.
I am overjoyed, and overwhelmed. So much to do, to read, to prepare!!!
And in the midst of it all, a nervousness, holding hands with a very calm feeling of completeness.

I just can't quit grinning to myself.

It's like an amazing, exciting secret that only I know.

This will be the year of New.